Fed

I grew up in an denomination where we did hear the gospel and I went forward to be saved at least once a year as a young person because I was not assured of my salvation. I knew that I had an inward problem with sin and could not save myself, but religion did not help me either. After my marriage in 1967 we both stopped looking for the Lord for about seven years. Then I began to hunger and was desperate for real satisfaction, the kind you cannot find in outward things or people. I knew the answer was not in traditional Christianity so I tried other less traditional Christian groups. Among these believers, I renewed my consecration to the Lord and knew he was living in me, but I still did not have the peace that I was in the place where I could know Him, where He could save me to the uttermost, and where I could grow in life, because things there were still so outward.

Then one day, a young man came to work on our backyard pool and he began to speak of the Lord Jesus and the local churches. His speaking was such a feeding to my hungry soul that after a few weeks of asking him questions, I was inwardly clear that this was a group of people who were absolute for the Jesus. Knowing that this was what I was lacking in my walk with the Lord, I desired to meet these people and see for myself what reality they had. I did want to be absolute but I could not do it alone. I needed a group of believers who had the same goal.

My first meeting was with a group of sisters who were getting into the Word in simplicity, calling on the name of the Lord with a pure heart (2 Tim. 2:22), and singing to the Lord with their spirit. I had the sense that I was home at last. These sisters desired the subjective experiences of Christ. I could not help but fellowship with them, I felt like the disciples when they left their nets and followed the Lord. I desired to drop my own self-interests and be in fellowship with them. Of course I continued to care for my family but I also looked forward to every time I could get on the phone with a sister to pray or meet in a home to study the Word.

My husband was afraid that what I had experienced was only religion and he was not interested. But after a year of my lovingly feeding him what I was enjoying of the Lord, he began to meet with the local churches. Setting his whole being to pursue the Lord as His first love.

Together, for the last 24 years of our married life, we have been brought to Christ in many aspects of our lives, and being built together with others in Christ Jesus. We love of all the Lord’s children and desire to feed them His Word and grow in His life. We want to be overcomers in this age to bring the Lord back. We thank the Lord for leading us to such riches released by our faithful brothers Watchman Nee and Witness Lee.

Carol Weil